I'm starting to hate the fact that I'm on the speech and debate team because I can't seem to get my pieces in competition shape. My tea party piece doesn;t have enough date, my monologue is poorly blocked and my musical theatre informative is so unorganized, it's hard to tell I've done any preparation. Gurr. But research is making my head hurt and I don't have time to do anything to majorly lift my spirits, so I will divert myself with a little frivolous writing. Forgive me if you're looking for something deep or compelling in this.

FTC is in less than two weeks. I have my song learned, my monologue memorized, my music scribbled upon, and my information submitted. (Good thing too, since the registration deadline was the first) What I don't have, sadly (seriously, it give me bad feelings), is an itenerary. As of now, I don't even know when I'm leaving. The conference officially starts on Thursday and ends on Saturday, but I'm taking the bus and my departure and arrival times are not up to me. FTC Idol auditions are on Thursday and Friday evening according to the newsletter, but the conference schedule only has them listed on Thursday. If I get through, I'm supposed to perform on Saturday night, but the last bus leaving Lakeland on Saturday is at 3:55 meaning I couldn't leave until ten Sunday morning. I can't afford three nights in a hotel room, so I'll end up either sleeping in the bus station, or missing a day of the conference and spending a night in a hotel just so I have someplace to wait till it's time to go home. Ideally, I'll have my FTC Idol audition on Friday and my SETC screening audition on Saturday so I can get to Lakeland on Friday morning, have a full day of festivities, have an early audition, then sing in the closing ceremony and win $200. I've never pretended to be an idealistic person. But it won't kill me to hope...to my knowledge. Then of course there are the workshops. If I have an early audition it'll be alright. If I have a late audition I'll be one of those people who only comes to FTC to audition for SETC...not that I would mind too much, it being mostly a high school conference, but if that were the case it would be nice if I could avoid paying so much to stay there. Why haven't I gotten my audition time yet? The registration deadline was over a week ago and I'm getting antsy. The longer they make mewait, the less sure I am that I hae something to look forward to and if this conference doesn't happen...nah I won't say that. Let's see, what else? I don't have headshots. My raws aren't edited and even if they were, I cna't afford to print a set right now. Too much money being eaten by this dangblasted higher learning institution. Might take some resumes though for the hell of it. I definitely need to update them. I have my audition outfit packed...I need new shoes. I need money. I hope I win FTC Idol. Or come in second. If I come in first I can buy some shoes. If I come in third I'll be pissed. Be positive. Be positive. If I get my refund before the end of the month I can stay the whole conference without sleeping at the bus station. If FAMU gets their act together. Maybe I can even eat the whole time I'm there. But it's not as important to eat on Saturday since I have my audition though. So long as I stay hidrated. Yes I speelled it that way and I'm not fixin it neither. When FTC is over I'll focus on Bat Boy and 4 AM. Then I'll be done with this semester. FTC will be good and the term will be good. Okay. Back to tea.