All I Want for Christmas

It occurred to me today, having been stranded in my house ever since my sister brought me here from Tallahassee, that I have not been Christmas shopping. In all honesty, I haven't a clue what I would get for the people who usually make my list as contenders for my lack of money. There are, however, a few things I would really love to have for myself and I'm in a wishing mood. I doubt these things will show up under my tree, but these are things I sincerely, legitimately want.

1) AN ACCOMPANIST. Seriously, I would be ten times happier and a hundred times less stressed and so...secure. One voice singing a capella is unguided and lonely and sad and just to know that someone is with me and I'm not alone and I'm really a part of something and the things I'm doing aren't totally without foundation and...yeah. Big deal. BIG deal.

2) A MUSICAL THEATRE BUDDY IN TALLAHASSEE. I've never truly had a bosom buddy when it comes to musical theatre who was my equal and my compliment all at once and having these thoughts in y mind and these feelings on my heart and no one to hear them or care about them or understand them...it's gotten rather lonely.

3)TRANSPORTATION. If it has to be a car that I drive...eh. But

. It would be so nice to go somewhere without the lingering fear that I won't have the strength to get back. And I want to go farther.

4) MORE MUSIC. For some reason, I never have enough. I want more. More I tell you!

5) DANCE CLASS. Legit, consistent dance training with real one-on-one time at a level that's not beyond my ability but still challenges me. I will fail at musical theatre if I don't learn to use my body more and better. And my feet suck.

6) NICE HAIR. People compliment my hair, but the truth is, it's disgusting and every time I ask someone to trim it, they don't cut enough. I need a hair stylist and some Jam, pronto.

7) MY OWN PLACE. I am so sick of roommates I'm ready to kill one and it's only been two years. Even if I had chosen them I would feel less...imposed upon than I do having these three strangers with as much right to occupy this space as I have. I wouldn't feel the need to build so many walls of my own if I had a few built in that came with doors.

8) AN OCCUPATION FOR THIS SUMMER. Idlesness is the devil's workshop. If I have to spend two months in this house thinking about how much I suck I might not make it to September.

9)KNOWLEDGE. Ambiguous and nondescript though it is, I want to know more. I'm in constant shame of my ignorance.