Getting Past FTC

So, as a child becoming a grown-up during the convenient buffer called college, I was extremely hurt and disappointed and devastated and...lots of other negative things...when I encountered the major failure that going to FTC turned out to be; so much so that I couldn't bring myself to share my failure with more than four people. I decided to write about my experience, which was significant and important to acknowledge, but every time I started I got caught up in little details and figuring out just what it was I wanted to share and which facts were relevant and two months later, the only progress I can speak of is in having another annoyingly long post that isn't finished and has served n purpose. For some reason, I felt like I shouldn't talk about anything else until after I'd gotten the whole conference fiasco off my chest. After all, it needed to be shared and wouldn't it be impolitic to go back and write about it after getting past it? So I've tried; I've tried so hard to get past the height of my hopes and he depth of my disappointment but in this effort to move beyond it I placed myself in a huge rut. As soon as I resolved to put that debacle behind me I created a shadow for myself that I can't escape; that I can't catch up to. I let so many moments of inspiration slip away because I didn't have the closure I needed to write about a new topic without relating it to this...
I didn't write about it and I didn't talk about it and I don't feel good about it and even though it's technically behind me, it still has the power to cast a shadow and follow me. I have resigned to no longer try to escape it.

...this would probably make a lot more sense if I put up a post about FTC.